Just feeling rubbish tonight so thought I’d share some gross toe photos, be warned!
My year has been pretty shitty and I’m feeling more depressed and hopeless than I ever have, I’ve shared some of the stuff on this blog but there’s some I haven’t and probably won’t, I know people who have things worse than me and every day the news shows the pain this world is in, this doesn’t help unfortunately as I just feel that pain and hurt inside me too. Anyway back to the toe, I have been putting off seeing my GP as I always tend to, but yesterday I was up in my wheelchair all day (at comiccon which I didn’t feel like attending but pushed myself to go) and it became much worse.
Today I gave in and called him out, he cauterised it with silver nitrate, it looks a lot better now but boy does it hurt, he’s not sure the cause but probably an ingrowing toenail, getting a podiatrist appointment takes ages so hopefully this will hurry them up.
I can’t help but wonder what else will happen this year, we have a month left, plenty of time for more pain, physical or mental. I’m hoping seeing the clinical psychologist who I saw for my panic attacks will help me mentally at least, it’s a last resort. In the image above I just see an ugly freak in a wheelchair, when I should be seeing a good memory and smiling.